As a good conservative woman, I always thought that the right thing for me was to fall in love, get married and have children with a wonderful man. Either my parents sold me this picture or I have watched to much tv with lots of love stories with a beautiful end. Unfortunately things are not always as we think they should be and I ended up getting pregnant of my ex boyfriend. I can´t say I was surprised or I didn´t want to get pregnant cause in nowdays becoming pregnant unintentionally is almost impossible. Of course we both knew what could possible happen if we make love, have sex with no cautious.
When I suspected I was pregnant I told my friend Licete Ramos. She didn´t believe and decided to buy a pregnancy test. By the way, she bought 2 pharmacy tests, lol. I went to her house that day to try the pharmac test and finally get to know if I was pregnant or not. Nothing came of it after the first test. I wonder if I didnt drink enought water. God, my anxiety increased significantly but I had to leave the second test for later. Her father made soup that night and we decided to eat and chat a litlle bit before going home for the next test. I couldnt concentrate 100% on what we were talking cause I really needed to know if I was expecting a baby.
The second test was positive and I immediately called Licete. Are you serious Marciana? She asked me, amazed. You better do a clinical blood test tomorrow. And if you're really pregnant, what will you do?
Finally, the blood test. I called Licete and she came running to the Clinic. Depending on the results we went to a bar near the clinic for a drink. The funny thing was we get there with the envelope unopened, both dying of curiosity. Licete even asked me if she could open it, but I decided to be the first one to read my future. Yes, cause a baby, being a single parent or not it completely changes your entire life. An entire life of a mother.
I say that a baby completely changes the life of a mother but I guess the correct would be: a baby completely changes the life of any person, whether mother or father. I am not sure at the moment, let me see what the future holds.
Envelope opened and the result is positive. Licete asked me if I could drink alcohol cause he could no longer drink anything with alcohol.
We were both shocked with the result when we left the bar but I made my decision: being single or not, I am going to have my baby. The next day I immediately started to find a doctor. A new beginning has already started.
A friend of mine told me about this website where I could put my picture and my ex boyfriend picture to see how my baby is going to look like.
I confess, it was funny when i saw the following picture. I did the same thing to see a baby girl. Both babies had a pretty similar face though.
On my 7th month I finally started to buy the baby layette. I didnt realize before getting pregnant that baby staff is sooo cute. I went to Nelspruit, South Africa with my friend Kanya Simão and she helped me with almost everything. She doenst have kids but she seemed to know a lot about it. If you see the baby bed, I didnt want anything to look a lot blue or pink.
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